I went back to Tri-Cities this weekend for the first time in several months. It was definitely a fantastic trip. I was able to surprise my sister on her birthday, see old friends, and take a day trip to Spokane and Ione, WA to play at Riverfront Park and ride a train through the mountains surrounding Ione. It was also a very eye opening trip for me. I realized that for the first time in a really long time, I am truly happy. Yes, law school is frustrating and stressful, but it's my dream come true and it doesn't detract from my overall happiness.
Friday morning I went to have coffee with an old friend and adviser from my time at CBC. It was so great to hear someone who didn't really know Ryan or the ins and outs of our relationship tell me I seemed happier and looked better. I also ran into a friend of my mom's that told me how good I looked. It confirmed to me that I really am on the right track in my life. Going through a divorce is never easy, especially during the first semester of law school, but after the initial stress and emotion, I can honestly say that I'm okay and I don't regret the decisions I have made.
It took me a few weeks to reach the "I know I'm going to be okay and make it" realization. I probably cried more in the last month than I have in the last 2 years. Through all of it though, the people that are around me on a daily basis were there. These are people that have only known me for at most two months. I tried my best to not let my emotions and frustrations get in the way of school and show while I was in the law building, but that didn't really work out. I just have to say thanks to everyone who gave me a hug, wrote me a note, brought me soup when I was sick, or told me everything would work out and I could do this. These people didn't have to say or do anything, yet they did. I love how amazing the people in my class, and in the law school in general, are.
My family has also rallied behind me to make sure I don't completely fall on my face and am unable to get back up. My mom and sister brought me a car when mine broke down, my parent's drove all the way from Aberdeen, WA - 7.5 hour drive - one day to bring me a bed and other furniture and made sure I had enough food and other essentials to last me a while. They have been there to lend advice and to listen whenever I needed them. I cannot express how lucky I am to have such an amazing family.
It's a new feeling to be this happy and this free. It's a great feeling to know that I'm finally independent and making it. I can finally focus on myself and law school and not have to feel apologetic for it. Independence looks good on this girl. :)
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